My Journal of Endless Wonderment

Now For Something Completely Different...

2009-09-14T21:46:50Z

I started school this semester; I'm taking Psychology, English Composition, Texas Politics, and more depressingly, a remedial Algebraic class. I enjoy the science of mathematics; Algebra is no exception. That being said, I am not particularly adept at it. I spend countless hours in unrelenting study, making what seems to be little-to-no progress, which proves to be extremely frustrating. I am not used working in order to grasp anything.
Still, I am enjoying every single one of my classes. The whole eye-ulcer thing was quite a hinderence, leaving me all but blind for the entire first week, and left me reeling to keep up. Over all though, I plan to ride it out. I think things will improve from here on out. Leastways, that's what I am telling myself.

Poetry

2009-04-03T19:06:47Z

I am nothing
If there were any beauty in such a thing, I would have you find it
I am the sun
Still, I wish you to fill the emptiness encompassing me.
Would we only lust for things possessed; we would be complete
There would be no beauty in hope
Only in that which is
In that land, I would dwell
Suffering true contentment
Pitied, by all creation, until all who live mourn my very existance
Yet, their collective sorrow only stays my hand, for I now know beauty

I read prior posts, and I realize that I've changed quite a bit since starting this livejournal. But I suppose the only reason that I keep blogs is to chart my progression through life. Anyway, here's a poem I wrote out of whim and poetical inspiration. I'm generally trying to say that you gain nothing without cost and sacrifice, but that in itself is not an entirely bad thing.

Vampire Rant

2009-03-05T18:04:08Z

Everyone who happens to breathe has seen, heard, or come in contact with some form of Twilight.

Have I read the novel/s?
No.

Why?
When a book becomes terrifyingly popular overnight, and appeals to the greater percent of the female teenage crowd, I automatically reason that there is no depth to the plot, or the writing.
The later is something that I find rather important.

Why not spend your time reading something worthwhile? Something timeless, something classic?
Why content yourself with the simplistic beauty conveyed by dime-a-dozen authors?

Why do I let their collective opinion affect me?

Because not only do the readers, if you can call them that, have bad taste, but they INSIST upon convincing others of the greatness of such novels, and cannot accept that someone may not actually enjoy these stupid books. I believe in sharing what I find interesting, yes, but not demeaning, and insulting those of whom disagree.
Everyone has their own taste in media, I embrace that, just find something worth arguing for.

Moreover, I am tired of everyone complaining about what Stephen King had to say about the writing of Stephanie Meyer. Have an excerpt.

"The real difference is that Jk Rowling is a terrific writer and Stephenie Meyer can't write worth a darn," he said. "She's not very good."

King did curb his attack slightly, explaining that while he's no fan of Meyer's prose, he does appreciate her storytelling — at least in relation to her audience.

"People are attracted by the stories, by the pace and in the case of Stephenie Meyer, it's very clear that she's writing to a whole generation of girls and opening up kind of a safe joining of love and sex in those books," King said. "A lot of the physical side of it is conveyed in things like the vampire will touch her forearm or run a hand over skin, and she just flushes all hot and cold. And for girls, that's a shorthand for all the feelings that they're not ready to deal with yet."

Hell, even I can tell her stuff is mediocre. How do you expect a full fledged author to feel?

Personally, I’d lose respect for a man who said otherwise. His credibility would suffer, and rightly so.
I can see the headline now.

rENOWNED Horror Writer Stephen King Sings The Praises Of Twilight

PEOPLE: “Oh, but he criticizes other bestselling authors, so his opinion must be wrong.”

May I draw your attention to the definition:
BEST SELLING: It means best selling. Not best story ever. Not best writing in the entire world.
The majority of people are rather stupid, what do you think they tend to buy? BEST SELLING CRAP.

By no means am I devoted to the ideas of Stephen King, or anyone else, for that matter; my feelings are my own, well founded and completely unbiased. I feel that there is in fact a place for both.
Granted, there are standards. Some thrive to excel, where others are content not to, within the confines of a genre.
But obviously, King and Meyer are on completely different ends of the metaphorical spectrum, so their respective stories cannot begin to be compared.

Hark!

2009-01-22T17:11:35Z

Oh glorious day, I think it's time for a post. If I could master 18th century english, I'd delight you all, but I can't.

Recently finished a ton of books. And by a ton, I mean 4, give or take. But if you know me, then you understand why that is indeed an accomplishment. Why yes, I'll start (-insert large number here-) books at once! Finish them? Unheard of!

And now my itallics button has become unconventionally stuck.

Anyone catch the Mavericks game last night? It was terrible, the final scoreboard reading 97-130. I sha'n't be upset, but I am, and think I'll take a break from watching. Although they just aquired a couple new players during the draft, and they look promising. Bye Diop.

Wow, it's been quite awhile since I've signed onto live journal, my icons need to be updated, or shot.

Pressing on, the other day I said to myself, via inter-brain communication, I think I'm in the mood to learn of 18th century Europe! Naturally, I grabbed my text book and read away. Ironically, I had just received Blackadder III on NetFlix. And sufficed to say, I recognized every bleedin' term, whilst mine family was in the dark, so to speak, as to the great hilarity that is Blackadder.

On to books, that last bit can explain why I read The Scarlet Pimpernel. Every great once in awhile, I find female authors that include, not romantic, per say, but egsagerated emotional aspects in their book that I can actually tolerate. The book's a classic, perhaps that's why. Thoroughly good read.
War of The Flowers, Tad Williams, Fantasy novel. Not my favorite work of his. I didn't care for the Vilmos character, or the way that the story itself was laid out. I consider it good.
Neuromancer: It you extracted Frank Herbert's Insight and combined it with Philip K Dick's story telling
Flow My Tears, The Policeman Said. Another Phillip K. Dick novel. Haven't read enough to plug it.
Otherland: Sea of Silver Light, I'm a couple hundred pages in, only eight hundred or so to go until I successfully complete the series. Hoorah.
The Lord of The Rings: The day I complete one of these books, will be the day that I complete one of these books.
The Hobbit: Nearly through, a book everyone should read, once. I've managed to draw my reading of it out over a long period of time, somehow. I suppose the story line doesn't intrigue me.

What is up in the world of me.

2008-10-21T00:01:16Z

Mmmm...where to begin?

Music-wise I've been listening to a lot of Fair To Midland, Mars Volta, At The Drive-In-y type stuff.

Books I've recently finished: Otherland III- Mountain of Black Glass, Worthing Saga, Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?, A Scanner Darkly, Ender's Game- wip

I'm reading Tad William's War of The Flowers, about an eighth of the way through. I need to start and finish the last Otherland novel. I hate that Orlando died at the end of black mountain of glass...

On the up side, I just found out that there's an Otherland video game set to come out in 2010; how cool?
I've started writing a couple of stories. One's science fiction, the other's just some story I write on when I'm bored.
I'm also concentrating on breaking down and studying the aspects of Geometry and Algebra that I'm not well-aquainted with.

I really need a job, so I'm working on being outgoing; I would say that it's not going that well, but ironically, I'm also working on being optimistic.

I have also been watching a ton of british comedys thanks to NetFlix; I love NetFlix!

Firefly Survey

2008-04-25T18:12:29Z

Clay was right.

Your results:
You are Derrial Book (Shepherd)

Derrial Book (Shepherd)		75%
Kaylee Frye (Ship Mechanic)		65%
Dr. Simon Tam (Ship Medic)		55%
Zoe Washburne (Second-in-command)		50%
Malcolm Reynolds (Captain)		50%
Inara Serra (Companion)		40%
River (Stowaway)		40%
Alliance		35%
Jayne Cobb (Mercenary)		30%
Wash (Ship Pilot)		20%
A Reaver (Cannibal)		5%

Even though you are holy
you have a mysterious past.

Click here to take the Serenity Firefly Personality Test

A Sonnet

2008-04-25T03:17:58Z

This is dedicated to that one friend that I don't quite always understand your thinking, but you write some great poetry.
I don't care if it's not perfect, it's my first sample of sonnet form.

Quest Of The Cynic

Love is the sole purpose of existence!

Our destiny, wholly, to seek and find.

Is that not the general consensus?

Such sentiments befit a simple mind.

Would you remove man from his pedestal?

Or appoint him a throne, to rule on high?

"Rather blind men lead the way," laugh the fools.

As the men of the Earth march off to die.

The wise wish me to, "acquire wisdom."

The unlearned suggest I should "search for love."

The old say,"look up, seek why you are come!"

The young assure me, "nought exists above"

Cynics embrace; inhale and suspire.

Lovers; in their ignorance expire.

A Bit O' Hilarity!

2008-03-07T14:23:54Z

cheekywee_micat @ 2008-03-05T17:59:00

2008-03-06T00:08:43Z

1. You have 50 dollars in your pocket, what do you do with it?
I usually deposit, so that I don't go spending like I'm liable to do. That, and//or cds!

2. What is your most guilty pleasure?
Glassjaw.

3. What one possession do you value the most?
That's hard, I would have to say one of my musical instruments, or my Ipod.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Definitely.

5. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Hopefully in a better state of mind as to what I'm doing.

6. Name a personal hero.
Dolores O'riordan, because she's beautiful, Irish, and has a voice like no other.

7. If the person you like doesn't accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
No!

8. If the person you secretly liked was already attatched, what would you do?
I'd be happy for them.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
A few things are trying me, but I'm letting it go.

10. What do you want most in life?
Just to be happy, and be myself.

11. Which of the 7 deadly sins do you relate most to? Why?
I forget what those are...*ponders

12. If you could go anywhere right now where would you go?
Canada, oh Canada.

13. Who is currently the most important person/people to you?
I don't really have only one.

13.2. What song do you relate to at the moment?
When one eight becomes two zeros- Glassjaw

14. What kind of person do you think you are?
I person that can't begin to know.

15. Do you believe there is nothing higher than human kind?
Yes.

16. What do you think about love?
Somewhat...it's hard to define.

17. Do you give your all in a relationship?
Not really, that's why I choose not to have one.

18.Do you have a motto? If yes, what is it?
In vino veritas! age quod agis.

19. What type of friends do you like?
One that makes me laugh.

20. What are you doing at the moment?
Listening to The Cranberries and this.

Of Mountains and Mo' Hairs

2008-01-22T07:06:24Z

Mohair – A smooth, polished surface
“Mohair is warmer than wool, with larger, flatter scales that contribute to an overall silky-smooth appearance. The fiber absorbs dye readily and, thanks to that smooth surface, reflects it back brilliantly.” –The Knitter’s Book of Yarn

Mohairs are positive and confident. You always strive to make a good first impression because you are a proud person, and you care a good deal about what people think of you. You are careful with your words and are always tactful. You enjoy having a broad base of support and respect from those whom you come in contact. You attract this with your warm, sunny, and inquisitive personality.

(Take the quiz and post your results!)

Mhm...well, that certainly gives me something to strive towards. I wonder how many of my family member, friends, and acquaintances would categorize me as "sunny and warm"? I'd make a poll, but I don't know what good that would do.

SO, in RL, I'm reading a book called, Otherland; City of the Golden Shadow. Book numbered one of four, which complete the entire series. I love this book; it’s one that I could go on about for ages, regardless of my not-so-science-fiction-loving point of view. Along with the greatness of the Dune series, Tad Williams is a fantastic author, on that- even those hating the genre- could agree. It’s a long book, slow, complicated and drawn out story lines. It’s one of those books that I want to begin rereading before I’m even finished. This is an insane thought due to the fact that it took me near a month to complete 500 of 800pages; of the first book! Ah, but it’s great, well thought, and I can’t seem to put it down.

(There ends my little plug for Otherland.)

Of concerts and can openers

2007-11-15T16:11:33Z

Yesterday I was all ready for the Brand New concert. I also was bored out of my mind, and I decided to open a can of blackberries and try my hand at pie makin' to kill some time.
Long story short, while I was pulling the lid of the can that I had opened with your basic old fashioned can opener, I pulled and ripped a grand gash in my thumb, and two smaller cuts in my other fingers. At first, I thought that it was just berries, and I didn't notice any bleeding. Shortly after, I see that my fingers gaping open, and I wrap it up as best I could. Phone my mom, while holding it shut...fun, because I have two kids with me.
Anyway, ended up getting 10 stitches in my thumb....and it was certainly an experience.

The concert, I was at the front holding the rail best I could with mangled, half painful, half numb thumb...and some crazy <insert explitive adjective> chick was shoving, dancing all the heck over me...but I didn't let go.
She would have fought me for not moving out of my place, but Clay was my savior and pulled her back.
...ah well, the music rocked, and when my fingers better, I'll blog a more detailed version of the story.

Vote for my poem...

2007-10-26T19:41:02Z

http://www.poetry.com/voteforme/poemvote1.asp?PID=12401761

Vote for me!!! or not lol

And I'm currently reading...

2007-10-24T17:05:17Z

God Emperor of Dune- Frank Herbert
(Fourth in the series;)

- Harlan Coben
(Stolen from Jason's book collection while I was in Hooks this weekend)

For those of you who are counting; 12 days until I'm 18, to study like crazy for my driver's license, and until Tyler and Melee's anniversary!

In other news......Saturday-Tuesday Adam and I were enjoying the beautiousness that is east Texas. I had so much fun, because I got to spend time with my Angie, Clay, Cole, other random people, and meet Adrianna. It was really nice, and I'm ever so thankful that Adam let me come along!
While I was gone I had several little revelations. The first being that I love it out there, and definitely want to consider moving back that way in the future. Secondly, that I get along better with married women, with or without kids, so much better than people my own age. After feeling so out of place for so long, I finally understand who or what I am a little more. So, I'm done trying to shape myself into someone just to fit in with everyone else. I know this fits, and I guess it's just who I am.

And last, I should really learn to change a flat tire.

As of October 4

2007-10-14T16:06:13Z

I have graduated!!!!!!!!!

Rah. I have a diploma.
I'm so glad I stuck to my proverbial guns and finished ;)

Woot woot rah!

2007-09-28T16:03:34Z

Happy news! Yay for fall!
And.....
I'm totally finished with my schooling!!!!!!!!!
I can finally relax a little, because I've been working like a crazy person trying to finish. And I'm also happy because I actually finished earlier than I had though I would.
Oh yah, and in November I'm going to a Brand new concert & Coheed and Cambria <3
Not going to see Craig Ferguson when he comes to Austin, like I had hoped. But that's still pretty cool...

White Ninja of the week.....

2007-09-14T15:49:53Z

This is so me!

Poem

2007-08-27T02:09:09Z

She

There stands a girl, wrapped in darkness
Sunshine is her name

Her eyes are like burning embers, and she herself the flame.

There were times when she saw pain yet, her smile shone brighter through days of rain.

So long ago, she stood beside me.

I was taken away,
but she was all but left behind.

Forever, I will call her Memory,

May she never leave my mind.

Now, how the years have flown, and somehow she is flying?

Although she stands alone in time
I am infinitely reaching

I cry out "Night"! she smiles "Day"

This alone was lastly spoken, before Forever turned away.

Too Much Coffee Man

2007-08-09T06:19:05Z

Official Website and other comics by Shannon Wheeler

Too Much Coffee Man: Guide for the Perplexed
If you love coffee, humor, and irony; I highly recommend buying this book. Shannon Wheeler is a genius!

First Entry!

2007-07-11T18:10:48Z

Hey this is my first post, if the title didn't scream that at you :)
What to say?
I am currently reading the epic Si-fi war novel ARMOR. (Not my 'cup of tea') I am half though, but haven't read it in a weeks. I really need to finish it up :\

In other news, I spent the last week with my wonderful Melee/Meliffany & my brother. While I was there I was able to watch what I think to be the entire series of Threshold, and a few episodes of the series Firefly, which I'm dying to see more of! I also have a nice tan from out camping-in-100 degree weather excursion. It was nice.
Right now, it's 1 pm and I've been up since, lets see....yesterday night. I slept a couple hours in between but I'm basically running on caffiene. I tried to write a poem, but it's looking like non-sense; I'll put it away and will do some MAJOR editing. Once it passes my own critiquing, I may post it in a future blog on my new and awesome livejournal.

Finally, I am in search of a Layout. The one I have now is only temporary. Any links to sites or layouts would be appreciated. ^_^